I think I know what played another major part in my lack of self confidence. People have mothers who encourage and believe in their children. But here I have one who asks why I am trusted to do opening and if I know how to open the door. Sometimes I think, maybe I am really not good at anything, at all. Because that's what I know from my mum, but now I'm pretty sure I am not the case.

Losing that confidence really kept from doing alot of things. Because who knows I might be making my own label and having my own runway shows if I followed that voice inside me. Or I would be out there training and preparing to cut some records.( and getting my face fixed up and getting a boob job, alright I'm just kidding)

I bring myself down so often that I am so used to self debasement. Feeling and thinking the worst of myself. And it made me think that maybe if I let others know the truth, about how bad/lousy a person I was, then I wouldn't have to live up to expectations. No disappointments or failure, right?

And thanks Dom, for the company today, if you're reading this!




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