i shall keep everything here instead of fbing.

and after the 10th i will change my blogskin.

getting back to work. be back for some rants later.

Misfits

if everyone else don't see what i see,

should i believe that i'm wrong?

or is everyone else just missing the picture?

i don't bother explaining, because patience is not in everyone's agenda.

its like the third eye, some people have it and some people don't.

those who don't just assume those who have it to be eccentric.

because people only believe in what they know and see.

occular proof, thats what they want.

but it still depends on what you want to see, and what you believe in.

i think my blog needs a change. maybe it will change my attitude. I needa change my writing style too. minus minus minus the melancholy.

你走了，怎么忘了带走寂寞。

不见了，你微笑的面容。

什么也没说，但你却都懂。

心碎过几遍，泪流了几天。

还是戒不掉对你的思念。。

We often get lost in this monotonous march. It Gets abit head-banging at times. Kick a few stones maybe it'll lead somewhere. There's no sense in life, maybe it's a journey to look at beautiful things, maybe it's a pilgrimage for some who seek enlightenment at the end. But be cautious not to give up and pull the shades down. When you don't see anything beautiful anymore, Thats when people decide to chuck the train ticket and hop off. Beautiful things await. Sometimes after a Long while, you only get to see the same green yellow and blue, sometimes it's all darkness through a long tunnel. But wait, have patience... Good things will come.


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sometimes i really don't see the point anymore...

i don't think i'm saying this just because i'm stressed at this moment

this question had been going on for a while now.

真的，没什么值得留念了。。

Time flies like an arrow
Fruit flies like a banana


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'人，因误会而结合，因了解而分开。。。 '

I like how this phrase puts it. We come together, with first impressions/ perceptions in mind. Portraying someone to be something like this, or that. From there on, we understand more of each other's lives, habits, interests and other mundane matters. From the daily musings, and chatter, we create more impressions; change or perhaps build on the prescribed perceptions.

So far so good, all sounds pretty much like how it should be.

but then again, how much interaction will it take to say that we know someone.

is it the quantity or the quality that matter? Would you safely say you know that person, just because you hang around him/her everyday? (*I dont like to place him in front of her, but then again, it comes out more smoothly. Perhaps its time for a change. Her/Him in the future. This will probably be raised up again through my study on language and gender)

Probably not? Unless you spend half the time, or maybe a quarter of that time, discussing things apart from food, drinks, professors and assignments. Inside jokes aplenty, and everyone gradually tune to one shared channel. The context of talk within that channel will then be centered about the situation and setting of the group. With some usage of deixis, talk could be carried perhaps just a little out of context, but just a little. It usually never deviate too far from the routine. Unless, there has already been emotional bonding.

Time for another question that may open another pandora box. We are understanding and perceiving people through every moment of interaction. But are we really understanding that person? or are we simply getting to know the person's facade? I believe most people have a self potrayal of who we really are, how we want others to see us, and how we should be. In our society that screams conformity, we put on a facade, to fulfill people's expectation of what we should be. From then on, we are bound to that facade. If for just one moment, we shed that mask off, people start to question " are you alright? you don't seem to be yourself."

So whats 'yourself"? would that be the one that you know? or the one that I know? this goes back to the title again. We built on perceptions based on what we know, and what we know might not be the actual case. More often than not, they are built on misunderstandings, or sometimes the lack of understanding.

People get closer, and one day, when the disguise fades off, we realise that things don't seem to be what they might be or should be. This is when the problem comes in. The bond built from misunderstandings becomes nothing. (this is just a hyperbole, you could tune it down a little to fit into your context)

Theres another way of looking at it, a deeper level. Like a show within a show. That perhaps, will be reserved for another day, when my eyes are not battling to stay open, and there isn't such a long wait list of readings.

For now, toodles!

I said I wouldn't emo.

No i'm not doing that now.

Emoing is feeling sad for no reason.

i'm simply thinking...

if theres anyone out there, who would understand without me trying hard to explain.

if i were to articulate my thinking process. it'd be a whole load of talking.

i should change the tuner...

like i said, we cant make everyone happy/satisfied.

theres bound to be something upsetting, incidentally or accidentally, it happens

often stemming from misundestandings, and with its chain reaction, it snowballs, into something more than that.

tiring, but i guess thats life. life is tiring.

a process, made for sport, and seeking sport.

(its a little against my faith to say this, but i learnt this from shakespeare)

time to change those bad habits.

time to make a big bang.

attitude, determination.

wake the sleeping giant.

let Him lead the way, let Him show everyone what He can do.

200% lets go.

Indescribable feeling......

I expose too much of myself, yet, I disclose so little.

今年新年很不一樣。
往年行程都排得滿滿的。
今年是簡單了需多，
但就是少了那氣氛。
很快，已經初二了。
今年為了信仰，引起一些話題。
我也被搞得有點不知所措。
神啊，救救我吧。

大家新年快樂！
學業進步，
萬事如意，
心想事成！

It might be in my blood, in my veins. There's too much melancholy in my words, between my words. Everywhere, seeping through... Even in my happy moments, there's still traces. It's my nature perhaps. A part of me that give myself away. Also a part of that keeps me questioning and thirsty for answers.






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Last minute shopping XD

Never had this problem. Felt like Ive been overbuying every year compared to this time

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