John 3:16
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son, that those who believe in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

My dad tells me this since young and I will do so to my beautiful darlings in the future. :)

Perhaps I will never do what m uncle did, perhaps it was his calling.

lately my daddy told me, faith being faith, God wouldn't feed you If u sit and pray. You will die if you do that and only that. And he says that M is the religion that he follows now . Money. And after a while, he told me how God gave bread to the people.

Hmmm, so what was he trying to tell me? Hahah. So far I only took it as : you can love God, believe in Him but not rely on Him...
And I shall ask him later.

My mum gets jealous of my dad. But we can't help it can we? Let's get real, daddy earned his respect from us... And the reason my bro controls himself is my dad. For me, I think it's Only cause u raised me. I was perhaps too young to remember.. And oh, yes, how you took care of me when I was sick. That's it. Only when I suffered and I was helpless. No happy episodes cause you couldn't stand us to be happy. Everytime you found us having fun you would come and stir something up. I really don't get it. You rob us of joy when you couldn't be happy inside. I don't see how it could add up to yours. I seriously don't remember the last time you got your own food. Only when no one was at home? And that shows something. That it could be done, you just don't want to. This I can only blame ourselves for spoiling you. To men out there, daughters and sons, don't spoil women too much. You use the same reason everyday, say the same everyday and you refuse to do anything about it. We think it's because you want something to put the blame on. And you don't know what to do when you lose that. But what do you gain in the end?! You say u don't feel well... And you are well enough to game? If you are really not well you should be Lying down and resting, not squinting at the screen and gaming. You say you stay up cause you want to watch us sleep first.. But when we go to bed you still stay up to game ! You can fool me as a child , but you can't fool us now. I couldn't understand my bro's intense resentment last time. Lately he asked me' remember when you were young you used to ask me why we can't say the truth in the house? Why we always have to lie? Now you know why right? '
I lie now as well, but I actually don't know why. Why we have to, when I've got nothing to be ashamed of. And yet you criticize and disapprove. I thought it was just us, until one day my dad flared up and said, 'sometimes lying is better than saying the truth, telling half the truth is good enough. And you wonder why they always have to lie....' for my Daddy to flare up it takes alot...

He's the best guy on earth, totally. Best father, best husband, best son and the best friend :)

Sorry I ranted too much up there, but I feel sooo much better hahah. I can only say the Way she loves us is wrong.. Sadly.. In case you girls are wondering... Nothing happened, she's just being her again. Just that lately she's been saying she's a failure...n I really don't think she meant what she said. Maybe if she admitted it, or saw what went wrong, only then will things change. No matter how long I preach to her it wouldn't work. But I just cannot help but try... And land myself in more shit.