Are we afraid of being alone? or are we simply afraid of being seen alone. Most people fear the social label that marks who we are; If you're seen with a group of social elites, you're LV. If you're seen partying with a pool of cool asses, you're marc jacob., and if you're hanging out with miserable people , you're just L without the V. If you're nibbling your sandwich in a corner. Thats it, wave goodbye to your social life. It may not be like the States over here, but the whole labling thing, it exists, like it or not. We arent that extreme, but we cant avoid it (we are all secretly doing it). Yes, even the losers judge. (oops!)

I'm fine out on my own. Shopping, strolling, movies, eating (still needs getting used to). Its not the alone-ness when you're doing things that's scary. But the wander/wondering eyes that make me squirm in my seat. Or the guy at the ticket booth that keeps emphasizing on "just one ticket?!" with his bulging eyes and bewildered tone. If doing things alone was a norm, we probably wouldn't face this kind of treatment. Screw "Man are social animals", yes we are, only to a certain extent :)

My taskmanager is gonna overload soon if i don't get back to work. Just found out a few hours ago that i have an assignment due monday. and all the while i've been panicking over the assignment due friday. and all the quizzes and presentations next week. omg. what a FML moment. HE WILL WALK ME THROUGH! :D

Talking about Him. let me just bring up something before i forget.
My dad called me last monday, telling me that he's getting me a diamond cross. I was a little pissed when I first knew of it, cause firstly it is not cheap, and I don't see why i needed such an expensive cross. What if i lost it? I would want a simple cross so I could wear it everywhere. But my dad said its okay and he says its really very pretty and he wants to get that cross for me. I thought my mum would stop him in my place but he text me later at night

" I bought for you a cross as a symbol of christ. it took some time for me to convince your mum to accept it. hope you will like it and take care sweet"

This message totally melt my heart. I still feel the pinch for my dad, but if it makes him happy, then, i should appreciate and be grateful... shouldn't I? Will use my life to protect it, cause its such a meaningful gift. It also shows how my mum is accepting my faith. (not her accepting God, but accepting me for loving my Lord) I admit i'm not very very pious, I sin, alot. I don't go to church regularly. BUT important thing is, i still love him, and he knows i do. Thats the most essential thing for me. We have a relationship that I don't need to publicize nor do I need to emphasize through any activity. its just me and Him. I think thats enough. Any other, I will do it at my own will and at my own pace.

Taking off, for real :D