Been a long while since I cried this hard. I don't know why it hit me so strongly this time. I mean, it's over and all's well now. But the thought of my mum having gone through all that. I dont know, it broke my heart when I saw that MTV. Deep down inside there's this fear. I never thought of what will happen, because i don't wanna think. I think I wasn't understanding enough. I felt like a bad daughter. I felt like what I did wasn't enough. Maybe i couldn't have done anything. But maybe I should remind myself to be more giving and more loving towards her. I felt like hugging her just now. Because I know that should I be in her position I will want someone to give me warm hug and tell me I'm still loved despite everything. Our existence are built on people's love towards us ain't it? So when we start to question our existence, isn't it one of those times where we don't feel loved or worthy enough for this world?

Having typed this post. I dont want you people to guess and judge. If you really are curious, you can ask me straight. But don't set your own judgement on what I post. Afterall this is a blog, a home for my thoughts and q place for friends whom I may not be able to meet up/ catch up that often. And also friends around me who has open up their hearts to me. I take all my words seriously, albeit being fickle at times. So don't twist it and come up with your own perceptions. I don't want to breed misunderstandings. Don't stir my harmony.


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