I suppose my room is too conducive.... that i cant study.

slept for 9 hours and i'm still yawning away.

i want friends, not merely companions. I may sound greedy. but my emotions need companion too.

Companions can laugh together, but friends can cry together.

dosent seem like the right time to emo.

but i suppose my happy bugs were used up all at one go that day.

my playlist is contributing to the whole mood. = /

another round of fundraising later, i hope people can show some care for the autistic children. 1 Nov was global communication shutdown day. A day to experience by autism by not twitting or Facebook. I don't see how it can help, and the awareness of this day is obviously non existent.

i didn't like to talk and people had problems understanding me. I had counselling sessions, but i didnt know what on earth was wrong with me. up till now i still don''t know actually. and my lip picking is still unstoppable. anyways, i think i need to dig my ear... can't hear any shit cause its full of shit now. as i was saying, it is really hard to not be able to communicate. Especially when these children are left out, and they don't know why. They want in, but they don't know how to response and what to say. so that fear probably keep them out anyway. This is from what I see, not factual. i welcome new knowledge if you know more :)

woah, i just googled, i didn't know autism was 自閉症 . maybe i was mildly autistic then @_@ if it meant the same. i was mildly 自閉 from what i know. ok, my thoughts stopped there cause i got distracted.

anyway, i'm really broke. so this is the last time i'm doing this. this is not a libra's job. so, 老人, only we will understand each other on this. hahaha.

God, can i pray for wealth ? knowing i will prosper in your grace, but now i still need some moolah yo. i'm bleeding my pockets. CG people just asked if i have any prayer request but i said no anyway. so silly to ask to pray for moolah. HAHAH. okay, that was a very dumb moment. maybe i can pray for my brain to speed up.

i want more of hillsong, surrender them to me people!!! if anyone of you has their songs, please send me kayys :D no moolah to buy :D